An Update

It has been a while since I actually sat down to...blog....without hearing little voices crying out in the background......without feeling the need to study.....without the constant pressure of searching for jobs and writing resumes/coverletters.......without feeling that I need to connect with the important people in my life. Tonight I sit here and all I hear is quiet, the kids are asleep, John is at work and I am here quietly sitting and enjoying some time to myself. Ahh QUIET!

So a little update. On Monday I had 'the interview'. I was a nervous wreck the night before, but I did quite a bit of praying, studying and more praying that night and surprisingly I walked into that interview as cool and calm as a cat (are they cool and calm?--I hope so, cause I really was) and I felt confidence like I have never felt before. You see the night before as I was STRESSING OUT, I started talking to God and really just laid it all out. Instantly scripture jumped out at me (thank you Lord I really needed that) and then I decided to check out a favourite blog that I found recently. She doesn't update that often because of the poor internet connection. Her post hit me hard. Why don't I believe or trust that God can move mountains?? Why do I take on so many burdens and issues myself when I can just hand it over to HIM who can move mountains, who MADE the mountains? I need to change the way I think. If it is God's will, He will make it happen. I just need to TRUST. He knows what we need, when we need it and what the big plan for our lives is.

So with that the interview went well. It was a lot easier than I had anticipated. I had a great board that interviewed me. It was really easy to be myself and just say what it is that I had prepared for and am experienced in. The problem is, I have been burnt before. I walked out of an interview super positive and pumped before, as it was for a promotional position (one level up from my current) and I was really confident. I had also been doing a lot of work at that level for a long time. However, I never got it. I never made it into the pool. Talk about humbling and a bit of a slap in the face. I did do a post interview and was given the complete run around. I wanted to know what I needed to improve on and how I could better myself (which was a big pride buster and super humbling for me) and I got NOTHING. So I am weary and I am trying not to think about it. If it is God's will I will get the position. He got me this far! I will know for sure by July 31st, so I just keep praying and remembering that I have done all that I can possibly do. If God can make and move mountains, then surely if it is His will he can provide me with a position.

Thanks for your prayers, thoughts and comments. It has been a real struggle lately. None the less a few more updates:

1. We are Moving!

Haha! I am sure there were quite a few of you that gasped and said "again"! No worries, we are just moving into the trailer next door to us. It has a better yard set-up and a few other pluses that will hopefully help us get settled and feel a little more settled.

2. Zech was praying for me before I went to the interview. I have been talking to him a lot lately about going back to work. I guess I am trying to prepare him a bit. He told me that I don't need to go to work, when I get older I can go to work! I love that kid. He also told me during one of our discussions that Genesis and I needed to stay home and that Daddy and him would go to work. I told him that he is going to be an incredible provider for him family one day, but not now! ;o)

3.) Genesis is our little Miss Sensitive. We tell her 'no' and she has a melt down. John just has to give her the look and she cries. However, she still tries all sorts of things and is one stubborn little monkey. I was putting the kids to bed and she ran out into the hall. I decided that things were pretty quiet and so I called her and went to check on her. She came out of our room with my wallet and she knows she is not supposed to have my wallet. I sternly said her name and she gave me the wallet and then turned around and ran back into our room and climbed into the laundry hamper and sat there. I couldn't help but laugh my head off. It was so funny! She knew she was busted and so I guess she thought she could hide. I wish I had my camera handy!

4.) We are anxiously awaiting the arrival of some good friends of ours from Korea. Actually he is from Canada and she is from Korea. We became pretty good friends while we were in Korea. She is the same age as moi and he is the same age as John. We haven't seen them in 6 years and have kept in touch infrequently over the past few years. We reconnected on facebook and just found out that they are moving to North Battleford. We were so shocked! Also the company that she is working for has their head office in Moose Jaw. We are so excited to see them!

5.) I go to a Mom and Tots on Wednesday mornings. I don't go too frequently as it is during nap time and we have had a few issues with behaviour. I went yesterday and met some new ladies, re-connected with a lady I met when I first got here and was talking with another lady who lives right across the street from us. We were taking about our 'home' towns. One of the ladies husband is a candidate for a position in Warburg, so we talked about that. Anyways, this lady who lives across the street asked me where I was from and when I said Thorsby she just about fell out of her chair. Apparently they lived there for 5 years and her husband was the Associate pastor at the New Life Christian Fellowship Church. It was pretty funny! Talk about a small world!

I still have to post about our short, whirlwind of a trip to AB and share some pictures of my beautiful new Nephew! He changed so much during the week that we were there!

Tonight I leave you with a few random photos from the Park in downtown Moose Jaw! My kids love the water so much--which makes me sooo happy! Hope you have a great night!