Timing and Prayers

I have wanted to do a few blogs this week, especially since it was Easter and we are so incredibly grateful for this amazing celebration and the importance and significance it holds for all man kind. Plus, I have some cute stories to share(that I don't want to forget) and some pictures of the kids in their Easter outfits. However, time is something I don't have and the timing of how things happen sometimes just does not seem to be ideal.

I am sick, really sick. I finally went to the Doctor and yes I have bronchitis. I haven't been this sick since I got bronchitis in Korea--for the first time ever in my life. This is a big thing for me as I NEVER GET SICK! Even when this year has been full of sickness in the Gooch household, somehow I have managed to stay healthy....until now. Genesis is sick too and is not getting better. We will have to take her in again as it has gotten worse--a lot worse.

As for me, I am going on the third straight night with only 3 hours of sleep (hence the timing of this post--ridiculous) and it is not because the kids are up, it is because I can not stop coughing. For some insane reason as soon as I lay down it starts up. I have three different types of cough candies, Cough syrup that I can take while nursing and I am even on some sort of antibiotic and still I cough,
ALL
NIGHT
LONG.

Frustrated is an understatement. This week has been brutal and I question the timing. I mean there is never a good time to be sick, but it could not have come at a worst time. John had 5 papers due this week, he has had to sleep on the couch, he has gotten up when Genesis woke up at 5:00 am and I hadn't had a wink of sleep to take her and let me sleep. He has rushed home so that he can help out and take care of the kids and just play with Zech, who is going stir crazy. We are both GOING CRAZY!! I can't even nap during the day when I am a walking Zombie and really, really grumpy. I tried to nap today and threw on a movie for Zech. He knows how to turn the movie off now, when he has had enough (smart little monkey). So instead of listening to my instructions of staying downstairs, he came flying up the stairs screaming my name and he woke up Genesis. I was ANGRY and maybe got a half hour and of course couldn't get GG to go back down.

John has his last paper due next week and then he starts finals. We have so much to do in these next three weeks and are both feeling completely and utterly overwhelmed, but know that it will work out. Still when you are in the middle of the storm, it is hard to see the calm! IT is hard to focus on what really matters and the only One that can get us through--GOD. It is so easy to feel so down, feel so discouraged, so exhausted and exasperated. Oh and the timing of it all----after an amazing celebration of Jesus conquering death and the hope and peace of everlasting light that it brings us......I can't seem to get past myself, and all the things that I am feeling so 'ungrateful' for. When I should be focusing on the cross, I am drowning in a pool of self pity. However, I am being real, honest and I do know that while the timing of things seems completely and utterly out of whack to us, we are in the palm of God's hands and He has this amazing ability to work things out for HIS GLORY!

So we could use some prayer, ok a LOT OF PRAYER.